What I will write to my brother.
I know you have been through a lot and i have seen you suffered and persevere in your sport. Believe me, I have seen all of your efforts and your commitment to it but I this is just the start. It is a good thing that you have made this far, entering a match. Do not wallow yourself in sadness and disgrace instead accept it and learn from it. Your opponent also persevered and maybe he had the right timing today maybe he worked it out early on. Then so are you, be proud brother.